Writing SUCKS. ( but twenty one pilots is amazing)

I HATE WRITING SO MUHC RHGRGR. I don't know what it is but writing feels so weird at home?? Like At school I could write and write endlessly on my journal and fics but now that I'm home and not out of the house as much (which thank god. the hot is fucking horrible). Whenever I have people over and talking I can do it and i get that same motivation. I thought it was like just the feeling of people around me that did something but like I've played sounds that is like the people around me. I've been wanting to write for To Your Love and The View From Halfway Down but both are VERY triggering and so I have to take constant breaks. I've been smoking weed more ( like every other week end. it's rare I do it more than that and I've cut out nicotine.) and I don't know what it is but like it gives me motivation to write a lot more than i thought? off topic, but it's weird and I honestly didn't expect that from weed. The View From Halfway Down is about Edgeworth and his bulimia. I dealt with Bulimia for the past few years and am just now ACTUALLY and FULLY recovering from it. It's been making me realize how many habits I kept from it. I need to take more breaks but also I've been listeneing to TOP so muhc more during them and it is soo good? Like Snap Back is fucking amazing ! My mom and I have been bonding sm over it