499 days left...

Has anyone had a crush on someone, and wanted to become a better person because of that person? Like, before, I didn't even think about chess. I played it occasionally, but i never really thought I'd do it often. Now Biscuit (The nickname i've given to my crush) is like a chess prodigy. This guy is a GEINUS at everything. Kind of makes me feel small, and kind of boring compared to him. Hes out here getting 100s in his academics, getting first place in every sport, and even is better at his instrument than me. He makes me want to be a good and productive person... Yuck! Love is so gross sometimes. You know, in the past when i thought i had a crush on someone, i was just.. meh. But now i actually feel something! Waaah!! No fair! Now i want to start chess club and work with him! And i feel all warm and excited when hes around! (not that kind of excited, get your mind out of the gutter.) Grrrrr..

Also me and him have never interacted face to face....