why does my mom do this???

ive been wanting to go to the aquarium for at least 2 weeks now, and both times we had the opportunity, we werent able to cause of some bullshit that came up. last week my stepdad couldnt get a day off to go because his stupid boss wouldnt let him, even though he hadnt had a day off in MONTHS. 

now his car wont start for some reason and my mom is trying to act as if its MY FAULT. she keeps telling me not to make my stepdad feel worse than he already does, and i understand how he feels but.. this trip was supposed to be for my birthday. MY birthday. my 16th birthday that was supposed to be really special. and shes acting as if im just being dragged along for "family bonding" or something. i was the one that suggested we go in the first place!!!! 

and then she starts complaining about how the house looks, which only makes me feel worse on top of that. i just wanted to go to the fucking aquarium but now i might have to wait another week cause my stepdad cant get a day off. now he has to fix some random persons air conditioner because his boss wont do it himself. my mom seriously needs to understand how I feel, because this was meant to be special. i never get to go outside of the house that often in the summer, and shes making it seem like we go on these trips all the time.

my dads gonna try to start the car again l8r, but at that point we'd get there when it closes so whats even the point