just yapping

hi so if you're reading this i'm so about to go into a yap sesh. you don't need to read this, but if you do, thx lol

so I just wanted to talk about how disgusting some people are. i'm not talking ONLY about p3dos and pr3datory people. i'm also talking about children today. "but they're just kids, how could you say that!" uhm, yes, but so am I, and I obviously have more common sense than them? no, this isn't about taking d r u g s to be cool, or sm0king to be cool, no. i'm talking saying straight up m1sogynistic sh\t DURING class, OUTSIDE of class, talking WEIRDLY ABOUT WOMEN'S BODIES LIKE THEY'RE YOUR POSESSION, so on and so forth. 

yes, they could me just middle school homophobic boys who's hormones are hitting 24/7 BUT THERE ARE SOME middle school boys who, i'm guessing, HAVE their first seven years of education and their mothers and fathers DID teach them something, so I suppose it really IS 'not all men', but it's almost all boys. I won't even go into the topic of boys AND girls making fun of anyone that isn't wearing Nike shoes and tight leggings with crop tops. that's just bullying, and I'm saying this as a person who (fortunately) had the luck of being born into a family that is okay with the LGBTQIA+, is okay with me dressing up however the hell I want and others, so weird looks, laughs and bad comments are sent towards me daily when I go to school. so I know how that feels like. i'm turning 13 in less than a month. do you think a 13 year old has to grow through bullying from students, teachers, some FAMILY members? it's so normalized in this society, ESPECIALLY in my country to hate on everything different. to hate on the people who aren't openly trembling in fear of showing up to school or work or in public how they want to.

not lets go back a bit. talking weirdly about women's bodies when you yourself are neither a woman, haven't had physical contact with a woman, or have never gotten close to a women that isn't your mother or grandmother. yes, i'm talking about the boys in my class, other classes, creepy grown-@ss men- oh, wait- creepy grown-@ss men? let me yap about that too.

my music teacher. did those words make you wanna throw up yet?

let's just list off the things he's done: touch me when I told him I didn't want him to, repeatedly touch me in class (not inappropriately, but I was still uncomfortable), joke about r-wording a 11 YEAR OLD GIRL, JOKE ABOUT DOING THAT 2 MORE TIMES, mention s3x during class, pushes his religion onto us (he's a christian, and he talks a LOT about Christianity during classes but uhm why dude we have a Muslim kid AND a Jewish kid in our class? and he's PURPOSEFULLY kinda mean to the Jewish kid so.......), GUILT TRIP ME INTO REJOINING HIS SINGING GROUP THAT HE LEADS IN OUR SCHOOL, THREATEN SAID 11 YEAR OLD GIRL BECAUSE SHE LEFT THE SINGING GROUP TOO, THREATEN OTHER GIRLS THE SAME WAY, embarass me in front of my WHOLE CLASS, call a girl who left the singing group 3 days before a big concert a TRAITOR FOR 2 MONTHS AFTER SHE WAS ALREADY GONE (she also does opera singing on the side and had 2 OPERA CONCERTS AT THAT SAME NIGHT THAT WE HAD OURS and the music teacher gave her two options, the opera or the singing group and of course she chose the opera like ????) and so much more. 

I am so pissed. at this society, at the community, at the people, at the government. 

I hate having to put 'Life' in the category of this blog. this shouldn't be the way we all live. but I will continue to do that until there's a change.

if a 13 year old can see the problem, then a fuckign 58 year old grown adult man could, too.

yap sesh over.