why i love ladybugs

in elementary school, i would catch ladybugs out in the field with pals in recess. i loved that activity so much. i like it when they would crawl in my hands :3 those memories is filled with nostalgia , happiness, and freedom. things were so simpler as a kid. growing up, it was hard mentally for me. i was convinced i wouldn't live by 18. and when i saw a ladybug at 18 without looking too hard for it, it honestly made me tear up because i don't know it kinda in a way was like a "you made it :)" or like a "younger you is proud of u"?? metaphor or whatever ah i don't know. i'm thankful i'm 21 now! i'm hoping i see a ladybug again soon ^___^ sorry i got emo on main but yeah I LOVE LADYBUGS