so ... pride 2026, anyone? / disappointment and how i manage it

remember that thing i said in my last-last entry about going to pride?

well, it's been cancelled unfortunately. unless someone's controlling the weather, it's no one's fault, just shitty circumstances. i'll still be going out with my boyfriend, it's just all very... unfortunate. and unfortunately for me, i get really sad/pessimistic really easily. i don't deal with abrupt change well either.

to be fair, i've gotten better at dealing with this sudden blueness. i isolate less easily and can at least be hopeful still; if not for myself then at least for others involved. it's really a mix of seeing both sides, especially in the face of pessimism.

 on one hand; would've been my first pride parade like Ever. i spent like 22 bucks exactly at the store buying stuff so i wouldn't be empty-handed at the festival and now i just have granola bars sittin around. i may* have to wait a whole year to experience pride again. i stayed up late preparing an outfit for it (like 4am late bc i couldn't sleep due to excitement either) when i could've been sleeping. i worked on a makeup look for it too. boo-hoo..

 on the other hand; i have a newly improvised outfit to wear on other occasions. i don't just have granola bars, but also a healthier snack to reach for. *there is a SLIGHT chance they might reschedule our pride parade for next week. my boyfriend's still taking the chance to hang out with me today, just somewhere else. thus, i won't be stuck in my miserable house all day. thus, hope reigns once more!

it's really a matter of perspective, i suppose. i can't lie to ya; that 'half full or half empty' thing i heard of used to sound so fucking stupid to me. i always just said 'half empty. suck my dick idc.' but i mean, it makes sense. if we're talking about an actual GLASS i don't see why we just say the liquid in it is halfway or halved but maybe that doesn't make sense grammatically.

of course, not all situations have a good half or good takeaways and that's ok, not everything will. it's just good to try and see the good in some situations before one goes off sobbing. and even if you go off sobbing, that's okay. sometimes life is just a piece of shit, and it overwhelms the fuck out of us. that's not anything to blame oneself about, humans/humanoids are emotional creatures. that shit's normal.

moral of the story is; something got abruptly changed, i was upset until i realized there's more to it than despair, and that's okay that i was upset in the first place. more people should acknowledge that pain will pass, and it'll be okay in the end. :) at least, that's what keeps me sane.