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wondering how would it be if I never existed

obviously I wouldn't be questioning that if I never was born, cuz, well I wouldn't have a mind to think about it?.. obviously..

but

I'm thinking about what would change

because I'm not sure I made any impact to anyone on this planet, and not existing technically would result in the same outcome as of now

feeling like I'm going to fail soon

fail to live normally

to continue living without any regret or thoughts that make me think that I'm useless

I seriously need to stop worrying, wondering and overthinking but

it's not easy

я думаю мне осталось недолго.