changing

in life, there is so much change. it seems everyday something that was one thing becomes another, like what something once was is no longer itself and is instead unknown. change isn't always bad nor scary, i actually like it, especially now. i'm going into my senior year of highschool, im turning 17, i'm in the process of getting a drivers license and car, and all i spend my days doing is job applications. i remember being young about 11-13 and never even seeing myself being a freshman. back then, i feared change more than anything, i wanted to control everything in my life because deep down, i felt i had none, and because i feared change i was at my lowest point. as i left middle school and entered highschool, i began to realize that change was not bad at all and that actually it was my biggest blessing. i escaped my horrible middle school and the toxic enviroment in it and began to enjoy highschool, find people who actually cared for me, and just enjoy life. i look back now and see how much i've changed and i can't be more happy, i know that one day this time will be a time i'll look back on, and i just hope the change i'll experience until then is good.