Holy shit that art crawl changed me .

My town has an event we call Art Crawl. I think go single time— it's the one thing I go to no matter how bad I feel. All of my friend were there. Some who I don't get to hangout and who had only been there once because of me. Getting to see my friends enjoy that shit without me and just letting them go off where was the sweetest view I will ever see. I was jumping thru my groups a lot, but there were moments where they all together. And I have a photo of it. I know it's dumb to get emotional over but seeing them all together—but it brings  sense of safety and joy I haven't in a while from a group. It makes me genuinely tear up and I was crying last night from seeing everyone together. I love and care for these people, and I know they feel the same. I know that they love and care for me too. Someone I know, my ex, had a stand and it made me so happy to see that. I remember us talking about that kind of shit WAYYY back when we first met. I don't have any negative feeling against him or his friends. It makes me so happy that he finally got a stand. My friend Ava asked if it was okay if she got from their stand and I looked at her like" Yes?? Of course??" I told a few of my friends to go over and support their stand (idk if they did). I remember seeing my friends, and them looking back at me with a smile. It felt like I had people on my side again. I had people who I knew liked ME. Not just the image I had painted and perfected for years on end— but me. 

Seeing so many of my friends and other people I used to know together and ACTUALLY enjoying each other felt like a dream. I will never forget that night and what it has brought me. I love this town. I love Art Crawl, and I can't wait to bring Aj next time.
I love these guys. I will never forget what has been gifted to me from everyone I saw.