Last day of school

Today it was the last day of school for me.

It wasn't the last untill summer break.
I will never have to sit at a school desk again

I'm 17, but i repeated the first year of high school 3 times, and i just finished the second one.
however, i will not be continuing. I missed almost the entire school year, and so i did last year as well. I couldn't take it anymore.

I went today to say goodbye to my friend, to the teachers, to the staff.

It took me all of myself to not cry.

i don't want to go, i don't want to "find a real job" or "do an eavening school for adults".

I want to be 15 and go to my Third Year.

I want t o be normal again and do shit with my classmates. I want to make a teacher's life hell by doing misfits.

I want to be yelled "emo" at by people in the hall for wearing ripped jeans.

Why am i getting so old i'm literally a kid.