[#3] am i a bitch?

i, the epik penguin, am feeling like shit. um so let me explain, theres like around 30 ppl in my class (theres like 5 guys thank fucking god) and im kinda friends with most of the ppl cause they all really fun and they all have diff vibes, its been pretty fun getting to talk to all these new ppl and stuff. AND THATS ALL GOOD AND NICE and whateva but like yesterday i was mostly with this group of ppl who go by the bus and today i was with a diff group SO I FEEL LIKE i was a bitch and ditched them (????) but i still went with the bus group after school ended cause one of my friend and i go by the same bus so its convenient. 

the new group i hang out with they like so so so so cool, they read bl T_T i thought i would never find yaoi readers in my school (i live in a homophobic cuntry) and we talked abt that for a while     ALSO THERES LIKE ONLY 2 GIRLS in the group and they already close BUT they didnt like try to exclude me i think i hope i have no idea um I THINK THEY FUCKING HATE ME but idrk they were really nice and really cute. like one girl S shes sooooooo photogenic im so fucking jealous, i look like shit in photos and ive always really hated taking them but my parents force me to take them and they take the most horrendous photos ive ever seen. 

idrk how i feel abt the ppl at school. their nice and all but i MISS MY OLD FRIENDS I MISS KNOWING EVERYONE I MISS KNOWING ALL THE GOSSIP ALL THE TEA aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa whateva its fine its fine i can make more friends i already have so many its gonna be fine.

i wore a jujutsu kaisen tshirt today that my friend got me for my bday and this guy in my class asks me if ive watched it and we start talking abt animes n shit, he asks me what my fav one is. i say "a place further than the universe" he says he doesnt watch a lot of romcoms. its not a romcom. we talk more, i ask him abt mangas and tell him i recently got moriarty the patriot manga. he says he doesnt know that romcom. okay thats also not a romcom. why does he think i only watch romcoms. this is why i avoid talking to guys. I CANT STAND THEM. all that guy watches is mainstream animes that alpha giga chad males watch. im not saying theres anything wrong with mainstream animes THEY MAINSTREAM FOR A REASON cause they have really nice plots, character design and fanservice so so much fanservice. (i was trying to sarcastic idk if u could understand) i hate these guys who think they so cool for watching the same ass bland ass anime ive heard abt for the 100000th time, and they think girls only watch romcoms :/ 

um i just stared at the wall for 5 mins

oh yeah we had career orientation today, we met our history teacher and shes so damn fun. i got scolded by her lol. not gonna elaborate in any way cause i dont wanna :P

yeah whateva i am fucking tired causse i had to wake up at 6 am ;-; i usually wake up at 12 pm and sleep at 6 am. i feel like i became lazier n lazier during the break. all my bones pain cause i didnt workout or antyhing, i didnt go out and now the sun hurts every part of me, my sleep cycle is ruined, idk how to talk to ppl without forgetting my words or slurring my words cause i didnt talk to anybody other than my mom. i regret being a shut in. it was fun tho ngl, staying at home all day, staring at the conputer, talking to strangers online, making friends on my lil conputer, being able to listen to music all the time (u arent allowed to bring ur phone to school) but i just wish i took a lil more time to eat smth more nourishing for my bones, i have calcium deficiency, the doctor told me to eat a lot of egg and drink milk BUT GUESS WHAT BITCH my tummy hurts when i drink milk :c      i wish i worked out just a little ;-; but well i can still do it but i dont soooooo idk what to say

my mind is goin blank so im gonna stop this blog.

-epik penguin

(song rec- the baddest by joey vaelance & brae)

(ps i did not read this blog to check for mistakes or grammer mistakes cause i aint readin all that :P

also if u know how to fucking resize images on ur blog posts PLEASE MESSAGE ME OR SMTH ELSE im gonna kms 

anyway hope u have a nice epik day/ night whenever u reading this :> )