Hate

hate everywhere

I am not free from this I live in a culture deeply ingrained in shame and hate 

but everywhere i go Work, Social situations and even just to the shop to do my food shop i am faced with hate the internet just even further fuels this.

today i had an absolute cunt come into the shop and buy a toothbrush and a stella and start chatting then all of a sudden go on a transphobic rant unprompted and i had all my colleagues agree i never had the need to bring this up with anyone at my work purely just had never come up in conversation.

this really shook me to my core that this was so normalised between all of them, dehumanising another being comparing it to an illness. But how the fuck is that ur business you should just be happy to be yourself. we are a bunch of fucking monkeys walking around finding ways to entrap ourselfs in this fucking shite way of living.

I AM SO FUCKING SICK OF LIVING LIKE THIS. it starts to get you. you start to fall into it as well hating on people anyone that doesn’t fit your vision. 

I’ve been there ashamedly and i’m working on getting this out of my way of thinking unlearning the hate that keeps me miserable and keeps me down, KEEPS ALL OF US DOWN.

There was no real direction to this just my train of thoughts thought i’d start blogging on here i guess.