man

i know im settling for things i said i wouldnt

its kinda hard for me

i know everyone is human and i cant get what i want

and i should be able to leave things i know i dont want

but i still have hope that maybe things can change

im stupid for thinking that

i dont think you even love me

maybe you dont have enough time yet

maybe you regret it

how can you lvoe spmoeone and do this

i dont know

im pathetic arent i

just letting you do whatever

you dont even listen to me really

i tried asking and communicating things

i dont think you get it

i mean im getting worse and honestly telling you whats hurtingme doesnt even seem to cross my mind anymore

im immune to it all and honestly i dont know if u can tell

i know u have things going on and i try to help

i want to be a positive aspect to your life

but i feel kinda pushed away and am more of a chore or something

i dont know

i dont even like to admit that you are all i think about

i know you probably get some sort of ego boost

yes i talk about you

yes i think about you

yes i do things for you

yes i see you in my dreams

what even is the use of all this

im so pathetic

you dont even love me

why do i love you

IM PATHETIC

what can i do

will thiings change

i ruined everything

im so up and down you dont even know when im truly hurting

im cursed

just end me