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i feel so helpless and useless, even though im constantly used.

im kinda just used to everyone just pushing me around and stepping on me.

what can i even do at that point.

i understand everyone is selfish but i just wonder if maybe my feelings could be considered.

im unsure.

i also dont believe in love anymore.

random im bringing this up.

i dont know ive given up.

i dont think anyone has truly loved me and honestly i dont think im capable of being loved.

its ok though because ive learnt everyone just uses me anyways.

my needs are never considered.

thats ok i guess i can just live to make others happy, im ok with that.

thats alright though because ive already planned to live and die alone.

im going to just live alone with a couple of cats and spend money on things that make me happy.

you know i wish people made me happy these days but everyone has their own problems to attend to, which i understand. i know i cant be looked after and cared for anymore.

i think im just lost.

even with people around me i still feel alone and unheard.

i need to stop talking.

but also its weird because i know love is real, i see people in love and i know that i can love.

i just think im cursed and thats okay.

i should give up.