TW for venting;Lonliness and other junk

I know I’m not the only one feeling this way, lol. 

For the record, I have A Friend, and he’s the absolute best! I love him a lot, and he makes things a lot easier. <3 Idk, I guess I just crave more, like a greedy bitch lmao. 

I wanna know people, I want them to know me too. Feels like the only life I have outside of my family is on the Internet.

I turned 20 not long ago, is it weird I feel like I haven’t aged at all? Like, mentally. I think it has something to do with the fact I haven’t moved anywhere. No life changes at all. Just living in the same place, same people, stuck in bed.

I love my family a lot, but I feel like I can’t move, and it’s driving me crazy.

I feel like I’m wasting my life. I should be out there, you know? Hiking or some shit. I feel like a ghost just haunting the place. I’m not helpless, I know that, I can change things if I try hard enough. If I just start. Just wish I had a little support, a little push or something. Something that didn’t make my chest feel crushed like an egg.

I don’t feel real, not really. I’m just existing. I’m not asking for an exciting life, I don’t care if it’s mundane, I just don’t wanna feel like I’m wasting time anymore.

Anyways, just gonna put this here for a positive refresher :]

 https://www.tumblr.com/mortalityplays/779315066950582272/hi-a-lot-of-you-need-a-perspective-reset-the?source=share