Public shaming

Having this vent account feels like I'm putting myself in public shaming or something lol. People are probably confused or think I'm odd but I'm actually not that weird like idkkkkkk. That kinda makes me feel bad lol. It makes me think about all the ways I've coped in the past. I look back at the times I was emotional and cringe about it. That will probably happen to me again I feel lol. I heard of people saying that they get so obsessed with someone that it turns into disgust. I wonder if that will happen to me soon. I mean this person did some stuff that other people would hate them for, but I don't. So wonder what route I'd end on in the future. Disgust, maybe I've already let go, or maybe I still feel love for them.

HOW I FEEL ABOUT MYSELF RIGHT NOW.  

I feel like my old self, from after quarantine. Quarantine was pretty shitty for me I mean it is for most people. So when face to face classes started. I wasn't interested in making connections at all. Luckily I don't have that but I do have is my lack of energy for social interactions. I want too but I can't. I'm very used to being alone. So every opportunity that I miss to make friends or connections frustrate me. I want to but I simply can't.

Lmao I love talking to the wall