like holy SHEET i lowkey luv my ex (WARNING, green day references throughout) (haha did you catch that one?)

so its like I have a boyfriend but my ex is like so pretty too. I lost feelings for her and broke up with her in fall (lets call her nimrod) and then I got with my current lover (lets call him x kid) and like recently I've been thinking about nimrod again because shes like really nice and we are still friends so I see her a lot and I kinda think shes pretty and lovely and stuff just like I used to. don't get me wrong I love x kid and I'm not gonna break up with him but like HOLY CRAP I do miss nimrod!!!! and I'm not polyamorous so I'm not gonna be with both of them at the same time. I absolutely hate loving two people!!