I don’t think i’ll miss them.

5/23/25. Final day for seniors at my high school, well, half day technically. Im currently sitting in my european history class, we’ve gotten our work graded and returned, wrote a letter to next years class, and finished everything that needed to be done.

I sat with a group of my (somewhat?) friends, people that I doubt i’ll talk to once they graduate (i’m a junior and they are ((were?) seniors.) And strangely, I don’t think i’m gonna miss them. I considered them all close friends up until recently, but now, I’m not so sure. To my left was a dude i’ve known since freshman year. He was one of my first “high school friends”, he’s taught me a bunch about music, fashion, and whatever else. But, i’m not heartbroken he’s leaving. To his left was a girl I spent the entirety of summer heading into sophomore year with, we got food, partied, and spent stupid amount of money on clothes together. But, since that summer, I haven’t really talked to her. My friend group from that summer was made up of Myself, her, and two other girls we both had a falling out with. It seems like a distant memory at this point. To her left was someone i’ve never talked to. Finally, the dude to the strangers left was a friend i thought I was extremely close to. We drank, smoked weed, drove 30 over the speed limit, and cried over community together. But i don’t think I’m really gonna miss him at all. He’s bailed on me to hang out with our other friends to talk to each other, uninvited me from his graduation to invite someone he’s known for not even half as long as me. He’s shown me where his priorities lay, and that’s fine.

 In recent weeks, i’ve realized that all these people that I was once extremely close to, have grown further and further from my idea of friends. They’ve bailed on me, and shooed me away. But it’s fine, i’m not hurt, I’ve got more than enough life left to figure out who my actual friends are.

Anywho, it’s almost summer. Go outside, you’re probably gonna regret not doing it soon.