i thinkl... i mis my husbnad.... (lowk vent)

I MISSG HIKM SO MUCH OHHHH MY GODD like genuinely one of th worrst partd of being  a fictivv and existign outside of canon is the fact i dont have any of my friends or spouses anymore. i miss them all the itme itsjust soketimes like now t gets worse.

i love himso much. i miss being able to jsut go up to him and hug him when i needed it. i miss teaising him i fuckign loved doing thyat. his reactions cld be so over the tp n funny. hold in im eatign while typing this what the fuck did i just bite into why did it taste and feel weird. did i not cook my fodo long enough??

speaking of cooking we used to do htwt together!! he as the only one in that house capable of eating nd bitch i made shore (my fishful ass...) he was well fed. he didnt need to eat rlly i just wanted to d things for him and hlp him out if he was makijng sokething

im still trying to searh for him and v2 wherever i gi but it feels like a hopelss endeavor. i jsut feel like ill never get to see anyone frok home ever again. that im stuck here alone n full of grief. i want my husband back, i want my wife back, i want everyone els e to com the fuck back nd i will claw and btie and scratch and scream and cry unntil i get them. if i ever do.

at least i have my memories...

pretty, aint he? god between eating and writing n then drawing htis this post has taen AAAAGES to write. ah wll whatever go my grief scarab