The End?

There are some events that we always think marks the end of our interactions with something, or someone. A break-up, a toss in the bin, turning the last page of a book, moving from your hometown, transferring schools, graduating, taking the last bite of a meal so good you never wanted it to end. But your ex affects the way you view relationships, you're reminded of your childhood whenever you see that old toy you threw away on a display shelf, that book you read just once becomes a part of a big puzzle shaping your perspective on the world, a small remark you may or may not remember from your childhood friend back home turns into something integral to you, your first ever teachers build your relationship with school subjects, everyone you met and everyone you didn't and the place you made for yourself throughout your school years create the core of your identity, that one meal flashes in your mind for a split second whenever you get hungry.

So is anything The End? In the sense that it stops interacting with your life, I'd say it never is. But in the sense that it will never be experienced in the same manner again, I'd say everything is. Everything is ever-evolving, our interactions with something are never the same as they were even before we virtually end them. Your relationship with someone is ever so slightly different every day and cannot be rewound, the feelings an object evokes change every time you look at it, every page of that book is read with slightly different expectations, you wake up every monday morning with different reasons to stay at home. 

I feel like that is the beauty of it all. We are always changing through our interactions with the world, and in turn our interactions with the world are changing through us. Everything is interlinked; what we define as "good" and what we define as "bad" are both results of what we've done, seen, experienced, or never crossed paths with, regardless of whether we define them as positive or negative. In fact, even our definitions of what is positive or negative are shaped by what is happening and existing around us throughout our lives. Every experience is unique to the moment, and every moment leaves a permanent yet constantly morphing mark on everything that has been and will be. While we always have to leave our experiences in the moment, none of our experiences leave us.

Or maybe it's just that I want to think that way because of senioritis, who knows. But in the end, everything comes together to create the harmony that is life, and keeps on playing different melodies until the end of the performance, and even senioritis is a part of the orchestra.

In the end, I'd like to say it's never The End.