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Hiya!! Brought to you by the lil' oddity writin' this that escaped Ripley's museum :3

How I Operate! / My Life <3

So! For starters, I have BPD; I am in the “discouraged/quiet” cluster. “What does that mean!?” I hear you ask! Well, people like me have a deep, deep fear of abandonment. While other clusters may feel like they need to project their feelings outward, I tend to project inward, more blaming myself for most things (I am the CEO of overthinking). I also have ADHD! And.. a lot of other stuff hshshshs.

I am an SA survivor 3x (gotta catch ‘em all type shit), so I might make a few jokes about my own trauma as a coping mechanism. Please, PLEASE tell me if you’re uncomfortable with that, because I will stop immediately. I do tend to get attached to people (from my BPD), though I’m trying to work on that too. Abandonment issues, go!!! 

I currently live with my mums in New Jerz, and I visit my pops in Flur'da sometimes... I’m also ftm!!! Pre everything, yes, but I’ll hopefully get testosterone soon! Also also, I’m half white and half Puerto Rican (tho raised in a more dominican house/culture bc on my mom's ex) for those asking! :3

I'm also pagan (i... think that's the term?)! I worship Lady Aphrodite, goddess of love, fertility, lust--you should know her by now. ...prrrobably. So if you hear me say "fate forbid" or "sweet mother Aphrodite", that's why! :3 I ask for signs a lot and I'm pretty aure she gives them to me... it's kinda like that scene in Orgazmo where Elder Young asks Jesus for a sign, and earthquake happened, and he didn't catch on.

My Wants! <3

There’s gonna be a ton here that’s gonna miss some things, but! That’s neither here nor there!

Job wise! - My dream job is an elementary school teacher! I was raised with two younger brothers at my mom’s, and I was usually put on to watch them (and a lot of the time their friends too! Or the whole flag football team!). On top of that, because of how I was raised, I want to be the person a child can trust and/or come to if they have any qualms or fears! Is it obvious I want a kid at some point ?? I also can’t do math and I don’t like middle schoolers, they’re mean :c that’s why elementary school is the ideal!!

Relationship wise! - I WANT AAAAAALL THE FRIENDS!!! Real talk, I want people who support me! I know I’m mean sometimes, annoying, too much, but I want people who I can go to and they’ll listen and even call me out softly (but firmly!) if I’m in the wrong for anything! Someone I can be myself around with just a lil teasing, y’know? The same goes for a possible partner :3

Stuff wise! - I want a Lego set and a strawberry shortcake and a kids movie to watch with someone to build the legos and eat the cake with while I yap about the movie and they listen :3

…that’s just a date, uuuhh. Oh! I’ll stick this here, too…

Love languages! - I will stare at you if you give me something and maybe cry c: I love giving people things, be it paper thingies, drawings, bought gifts, cards… all kinds’a stuff! I’m also very big on physical touch—I am THE teddy bear! If you need comfort, just wanna cuddle, or just hug, I’m ur guy!! :3 I’m already pretty huggy with friends (unless told otherwise), but it’s soooo much worse with a partner jsjjsjs

Lots of luv, and thanks for reading !! - Xavier <3