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one really good day at work

Have you had a good day at work recently? Has that workday goodness been independent of the goodness of your overall day? I am leaning towards the belief that this is a good sign, if you are on the road to self-actualization. As a culture dominated by capitalistic intent, we have been exposed to media ideals that it is honorable to work yourself to death for the success of a company - that there is no higher calling than "dying for a cause" greater than yourself. One interesting way that this concept has permeated by axiomatic world is Severance, the greatest TV show I've ever watched that managed to follow up on an otherworldly S1 with a conceptually impossible S2. It is a must-watch for the modern office worker - the modern remote worker, the modern tech worker. In the quest to find out who you are, wouldn't it be helpful to know that there are so many others like you?

Dang.

Put a lid on it man.

Yeah. Chill. You asked a question of them. Holy shit. Is this visible?



Here's some more Sportsball. Take it easy. Look at the way Sang-Bin Jeong absolutely gives everything. His calves are punishing the organic matter that was unlucky enough to be grass. When was the last time you felt the passion that this man must have? What must he be thinking? What is he thinking about, to dig so deep? He outruns everyone. His aim is true, and he makes another paid Sportsball player look silly. He will remember this moment for a long time. Let's remember it together.
I had a great day at work today; something I haven't had in a long time. I don't know when the last day was that I deeply, personally cared about what I did at my place of employment. I knew I cared about the mission, but it felt hard to care about anything. I felt like I wasn't in a place I could thrive in, and often indulged in escapism. The last thing I ever wanted to think about was work. Unfortunately, I need to think about work. My job has done me the fantastic favor of surrounding me with people who are smart, ambitious, and driven. In order to keep my job, I must now do those things. One thing I had liked about my job, at one point, was that I didn't have to be those things, but it is time to grow up, and everyone must grow up, and I believe, for the first time in awhile, that I might just have fun growing up.

It is hard to grow up.
It is hard to lose people you care about. It is even harder to let people down you care about. Today, I let someone down that I cared about. I didn't recognize their social and emotional needs, and was so caught up in my own moment I forgot to really think about what would be logically the best thing to be doing. If you're a dedicated reader, or me, you probably know what I'm thinking about. How annoying is that? You little creep. 
I did the thing! Wow! I had a great workday, and really freakin killed it. I mean, I was throwin out ideas, left and right. I was displaying domain knowledge I haven't thought about in years. I realized something; a true truth, that I will display on this blog for one night only! 


I'm done coding. I don't like doing it right now. I need a break from it. I don't like doing front-end development, I want to think about the kind of stuff we're doing, and make high level decisions. I don't know if I deserve it, but I think I can make a real positive impact. How the hell do I do it? How do I convince my job that I need to take a break from the thing that my job description says I'm hired to do?

I planned a longer payoff for this, but truthfully, I've had a long day. It took a lot out of me, as you've seen. I enjoy living the consequences of a life well lived, but a life well lived makes it harder to write about it. Perhaps that's why there's no secret to life or a magical pill to happiness - it's because anyone who discovered it just did it, and then had no need to create more for others anyways. They were already fulfilled.


my man
This story brought me to tears. Knowing this made the goal mean so much more. This is a man who is working through very real emotions on a very public stage, and he is winning.

Let's rewatch.

It is okay to be sad. I am crying writing this. I am truthfully sniveling away tears, trying desperately to wrap up so I don't have to bear this load any longer. It is okay to be sad. Think of the things that aren't sad. See the man, overcoming grief. He is overcoming a lion, he is overcoming space, he is overcoming himself. Every step is a step, dedicated to love. Have you felt love? have you known, how even though love is not a drive in the way that every physical drive is needed, it is still needed to breathe? I don't know if I have ever felt the way I feel when I declare that I am feeling love. I love my job today. I love being a fan of Sang-Bin Jeong, just the way I worded it. I love being a fan of people I see myself in. I have a belief - you shouldn't make fun of those less advantaged than you or even people who have done terrible things because in their positions, what might you have done?. I ask myself that question often. I believe the inverse is also, thankfully, THANK GOD, true. Athletes are able to face trials and overcome. They are able to dig deep, and accomplish something more, for the sake of something bigger than themselves. If it all will it to be so, may I find myself in their positions, I hope I will do the same things they do.


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are you telling me a sang bin this jeong O_o
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are you telling me a sang bin this jeong O_o
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