I am already 19. How?!
It felt like only a couple of months ago I had turned 17. I remember my 17th birthday. Andy Rourke of The Smiths had passed that night.
I feel like my young years are wasting away while helplessly watching everyone else thrive.
Everyone I know is hanging out, partying, and going to gigs.
I usually can't because I have to work late. I hate my job.
I always put on a brave face and scold people for shaming ageing women. The truth is, I am terrified.
I am terrified that I will grow into a woman bitter towards younger girls out of jealousy.
I do not want to be that person.

I'm so scared of growing up.
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Seth
Just get off the internet. Seven internet years is equivalent to One real life year - the great compression of time is not caused by time itself being compressed, it's just the perception of time being compressed due to constant information inflow from the various sources that no one knows how to filter properly. When I was 18 I got in a spat with the durka durka on the line with AT&T tech support, I got so mad that I disconnected our internet - and for about six to eight months I just played offline games, watched tv off an antenna, and listened to the radio - I was completely alone, but they were some of the calmest, best, days of my life. That period of time also takes up much more of the surrounding years than it actually did because time moved slower - at times at a snail's pace. All you have to do is get off the fucking internet every now and then, go for a walk, have a shit and a cigarette - you'll be right as rain. As for fearing growing up - you'd be surprised at how gradual of a process it is - and how many motherfuckers just never did out in "the real world".
love ur attitude lol
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saucy_egg
im 22 and havent accomplished anything
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I understand you very well
I wish I never grew up and didn't have to deal with these problems ;(((( I hope that your life will become better and cooler <33333