05/28/2005

Literally haven't posted in forever!! Lolz

I heard journalling is supposed to be pretty good for you, but I don't get it all that much. I just want to go talk it out with my friends yk?? Also, really confused about my gender again. Basically, this guy kind of liked me but only liked me if I was a girl and I was willing to just be a girl for him, then I realized that's kind of erasing myself in the process.

I sort of thought of the Bikini Kill song Alien She. Yk?

Like he wants me to put lipstick on and be all heteronormative and like... in doing that it would kill off a part of myself.

So I decided to just get away from him. I don’t need to date anyone anyways. It's not a waste of my time, sure, but I'm busy. I have other stuff to do and a good routine going for me. I know that having a person thrown in the mix would make me have to change things around. Call me selfish, but I'm not willing to do that for anyone yet.

I'll probably treat this more like a blog again. That's all that's been happening in my life, though. SOOO interesting, I know.

ciao!!

M