THOUGHT MAXXING

some weird circumstances all happened at once that made me super creative,

1st, I don't have a phone cuz it broke and it's taking forever to get fixed, 2nd, it happened while I'm out of state on a work trip so I don't have my normal things to distract myself with, and 3rd, I'm working 10 hours a day and only coming home and making youtube videos, so this means:

1. I'm SUPER creative since I have no distractions! all day long I'm thinking about video ideas, bible verses, and focusing on how I behave and why (so I can get to know myself better) so i've been learning a BUNCH just by thinking

2. I got this notebook at the store for whatever reason (basically no reason lol) and since then (like 4 days ago) I've written like 10 PAGES in it, which if it doesn't sound like a lot IT IS, cuz it's all video ideas, ideas on how to improve my videos, and more thoughts about myself and God, so none of it is just a diary or unproductive stuff. it's made me SO PRODUCTIVE with all this going on

3. the entertainment that I do seek out is all spent with my dad (its jus me and him on this work trip) so instead of watching YouTube and listening to music, I've been talking with him and playing vgs with him as well, it's been super nice to spend time with him

all in all, it's AMAZING what not having a phone for just a week can do! I get my phone back again in roughly 4 or 5 days but i dont even care, I've been enjoying my thought life so much more than I enjoy distracting myself lately, im going minimal phone right now

the crazy thing is I've had similar experiences like this where I only have my thoughts, but each time I choose to go back to my high-entertainment way of life because it's so much easier. not this time. I want to fill up notebook after notebook with lifechanging thoughts and lessons I've learned

we choose to keep distractions in our life and then end up blaming them for the messes it results in. how sad. YOU are the cause, and evidently you are also a slow learner, because if 'learning' is same condition, new behavior, and 'intelligence' is rate of learning, I have been a very unintelligent person (ouch.)

anyways, yeah.