in the corner of my library, sad about my birthday :/

it makes me feel sad because I feel like my friends dont care about me even though I randomly reach out to keep a connection going and even when I do that I have to convince myself that it's not weird because were friends but this, and them not saying anything kinda makes me feel like im right like i'm always right. and I am.

and i dont hate them for it, everyone has their own life. but i just thought i was more important i guess. for a second I was like maybe they sent their messages but then when I didnt respond they deleted them… but then I had to sit myself down and say, 'gabby…sweetie.' 

i mean would i even want friends that would be that petty and do that?

it's nice though cause I got birthday wishes from people I wasn't really expecting to so it kinda evens out.