Graduating high school in 3 days…

I’m graduating Saturday. I already had my last day of school, in which I saw a lot of people for the last time, including my orchestra teacher who I’ve known for my entire time there. I’ve felt a sense of melancholy for the past few days. I can’t help but I think I should’ve tried harder and done more. 

My mind is kind of scrambled right now with all the factors I have to take into account when I think about college, especially with the Trump stuff, so I’m taking a gap year to save up and think about what to do. I plan on doing some self teaching for programming this year while I work, and I hope I can do some stuff that’ll prepare me for college, maybe even build a portfolio for applying. I hope I can do better in my future and finally make use of the potential I know I have. To anyone else graduating this year, I wish you the best of luck!