RANT

Bro I'm actually so SICK of having friends who 1. Don't plan accordingly 2. Always wants to do something but everyone is broke or can't have a ride 3. NEVER UNDERSTANDS TO JEEP CERTAIN THINGS TO THEMSELVES 4. ARE JUST REALLY REALLY DIFFERENT FROM ME

I love my friends so very much but at times it gets to points that I feel very different from them and it actually sucks. No no one is left out but me in very big on just keeping to myself, not drawing attention, I hate gossiping, and I like having a concrete plan. 

They don't

And sometimes I feel extra because I always STRESS out about it and I feel as if maybe I'm the issue atp because I know I'm not innocent at times I can be a little much but it sucks because whenever things happen they're all s close by to eachother and I never know about things till late minute. I work daily and they don't do they hang out a lot more without me and I just feel really left out and just not as close with them. Then when you do ask about something its always "lol I'll see" AND I NEVER KNOW UNTIL LAST MINUTE AND IT MAKES ME SO ANXIOUS!!!

this rant doesn't make sense and it doesn't rn I'm stressed and just woke up and non of my questions have been answered (they're ALL AWAKE) anyways yeah this just started cause I saw friends grabbing breakfast together and we were supposed to do that but it never happens... (Mind you I asked last week😮‍💨)

I love them so much and I would never trade them for anything they truly mean so so much to me. I just get frustrated and I trust no one to talk to about this stuff so😞