Got drunk af ＞﹏＜

Heyy, so I wanna get smth out of my chest...

Last saturday a friend had her birthday party @ her house, and she told us to get as drunk as we wanted, bc we were going to had a sleepover and our parents wouldn't know anything. And it was like my first time actually getting drunk af, I was totally concious until certain point, where I blacked out. I know I drank too much (like 15 beers, 2 skys, sum shots, a four loko, etc.) and tbh, if I just stopped like right before the four loko, everything could've been fine...

There was this ponit of the night where I was slurring my words, couldn't walk up straight, everything was spinning around, tbh it was funn >w<

But then, my stupid brain ass decided to have another round of shots, and hit a fuckin four loko once I was rlly bad. My friends gave me water, and I drank sum of it, then a last sip of the four loko, and according to my memory, I put away the can, like away from me, and put closer the bottle of water so I could drink it up.

Last thing I remember was looking @ one of my dearest friends, ig talking w her, and having fun bc of how drunk I was (￣︶￣).

They told me the next thing was that we went inside my friend's house, I sat on the couch while they were talking, and then I puked all over her living room and couch. I bealive they took me out to and I vomited more, I even got sum puke over my friend's boyfriend w-w and that he took care of me. They tried to help me control myself but it wa too late, 1hr passed by and I couldn't move, no way I could talk, I just wasn't responding. So they called my dad, whom arrived and checked on me, and then took me home. In the morning he told me that I had hypothermia, my pulse was really low (barely noticeable) and I was a total mess of puke and ig pee? :'v

When I woke up I was like very confused bc I was in my house, so I called my friends and they just told me I was so fucked up (°ロ°).

My friend, the one of the party's house, is still not talking to me although I already apologized like 5 times, and ik I haven't apologized properly and haven't told her as much as I wanted to told her, but I can't bc she's just not listening to me. Like, girl, ik you're mad @ me for puking all over your living room, but u can't blame me for what I did when I was THAT drunk. Like, she's reacting like if what I did was on purpose, which was NOT, bc I was unconcious.

Idk, I know I fucked up realllly bad, but people around me just don't let me make better. Ik I can't justify myself, I can't explain myself, but still people won't listen my side of the story. No that I care, but....idk.

I am graduating from hs in 3 weeks, tomorrow is my last day of school, next week I'll just be attending 2 skl for the finals and that's it, then there's the prom party, and the weekend after that the graduation. All of this will happen and I don't bealive this "friend" of mine will forgive me      (┬┬﹏┬┬).

Thx 4 reading ig, if you did xo.