Tw vent :/

I dont know what to do anymore ,everytime i try and get help nobody understands that "im tired" means im tired of living ,i dont want to wake up ,i dont want to go outside and i dont want to see people.

I dont want to live, eating i hate it evertime i eat i feel horrible and sickly but i always end up eating which is worse ,nobody notices anything i say and i feel like my calls for help are just not being seen at all , i wish there was just an easier way to kms and make everything better because right now everything is overwhelming and everytime i think its better its always gets worse.

I hate being alone, the lonelyness is so painful yet i am the most boring person ever ,nobody that i try to talk to even wants to talk to me and then im also too scared to talk to some people because i dont want them to leave and im just so tired, i wish i could sleep forever my bed is so nice but i never seem to sleep enough and i feel useless and terreble person , i just dont know what to do but now im probably gonna try to sleep for 4 hours where i have school the next day / today ,fml