I think I'm becoming socially handicapped...

I'm a couple of weeks away from summer break, and the friendships I had at the beginning of the year and from last year are now fading, and I'm trying to make new friends! To be fair, I do spend most of my time inside, once I get home from school, I just hop on a game or I start binging youtube or read a book (AHEM... Assassin's creed Revolations...). Also the fact my humor has not changed since like--2018ish....

But I'm now finding it difficult to have a casual conversation with ANYONE, even my teachers. 

I do have my partner that I love so so so sooo much, that I talk to all the time, but even they've noticed I'm slowly crumbling from social interactions and are trying to help me get out of my shell again. I wanna be more involved in school next year, since it's gonna be my last, BUT FOR THE LOVE OF GLOB, MY SOCIAL SKILLS HAVE DISINTEGRATED. @~@

"Oh, why not just go out with friends after school, or on the weekends?" I'm someone who grew up in a Mexican household, and I was barely ever allowed to do things with friends unless my mom was going with me, it's emmerising...... though more now a days my mom says she's fine with me going out with friends, BUT THEN SHE COMPLAINS WHO I HANGOUT WITH???????  I have really good friends, btw, I'm very picky on who I hang out with because I've had my trust played with before, and I'm very careful now. but god damn, if you don't want me to become a human failar, THEN LET ME GO OUT. >:(

I'm tired of staying inside all the time and slowly losing my mind; on top of that, my parents are arguing all the time. I'm mentally drained every day because of this lifestyle, and I can't even turn to my older siblings cause they act like my dad >:/

"oh just move out" who the fuck can move out in this economy? (I live in the US)

I just want to distance myself from these grow ass adults that act like toddlers and crying about their problems all the time without doing ANYTHING to change that. 

ugh I just needed to vent, I feel like I'm 10 again, venting on DrawCast+ with edge ass drawings- any of yall remember DrawCast+?