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heyy guyss. its currently 27th of may 2025, i graduate january of 2026 and i'm starting to worry about where i might go after i finish secondary school. i know what diploma and school i wanna take but i dont think realistically, i'll get accepted. mainly because of my results. to be completely honest with you, i dont study. i dont wanna sit here and lie to myself and pretend that everything is alright. im so mentally drained especially because im in those "smarter classes" so i have this kinda pressure on me that i have to do better. because of this, i totally lost motivation to actually study. whenever i do actually study, i'll end up just sitting there and zoning out for like an hour. i just have no drive to work hard anymore and even doing my homework just drains me out so much. i dont know how to help myself.
the way my brain works is also kinda weird. like i know that if i dont work hard now, i'll be suffering in a school i dont wanna be in but at the same time, i have no regrets at the moment of not studying/playing video games now. idk if i'll ever regret it but right now, i just dont feel a sense of guilt in not studying. i was just fine with slacking in class. i hate it and i dont wanna have this type of mindset but i dont know how to help myself.
xoxo, aisha <3
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npily
hey, im not really in place to give you advice but maybe you can try to study with friends? you can try to be friends with nerdy people and then you are nerdy with them :]