Did anyone start to cry over the book white nights? Some spoilers I guess?

Well I did twice. Once in the middle of book when I understood that Nastenka would chose the other guy. It just like hit me while I was on a buss which made me have to close the book just to try not cry. And then the second time i started to cry at the end of the book again beacuse ouch it hurts even if you knew! Like poor dreamer!