kinda been feeling listless lol

i dont know. it was like a little while ago, but it still lingers sometimes and i thought i should talk about it because my blog lineup is really fucking embarrassing

one instance where i kinda blew up (or was it melted?) over how my art looks. i looked like the bland, same-y anime artstyle haver compared to my friends... it could be because my inspiration was kind of the gv2 art style but its just so damn hard to shake up my style for some reason idont know

havent really felt like things ive made are good. i think thats social media taking its toll though. therewas this drawing of gunvot i made and it got like eight likes on gj that fucking KILLED ME AAUOHUDGF DRAWING IN QUESTION

ok as an axel once said "some things just dont get their time in the spotlight" whatever </3

imlike the blade strangers of artists except i just suckANYWAYS enough dwelling on my subpar art skills in comparison to my two best friends

this ones been going on for longer but its like. compared toeveryone at school i feel so young. like im almost a 9th grader but nothings ever changed since 5th/6th grade. my ex told me that. its been stuck in my head ever since...

i do look younger than everyone and i hate it. maybe when youre older looking younger is better but this stupid babyface.. baby body???????????? is weighingme down

i almost blew up cause. once i went to the bathroom before my advisory period and it suddenly hit me that everyone in there were 7th graders, lord. and i was the 8th grader i looked like i shouldnt even be in that school yet.

it doesnt help the fact im short fuck my 5'1" selfKELP

okay another one

i feel like i haventbeen doing much inmy life um. im just there. not a major one but it does get me sometimes. notmuch to talk about here

ohyeah and ive been feeling incapableof a lot of shit forsome reason ("I can't sing for shit..." and youre trying to sing like megu sakuragawa or "I can't do anything right..." and its because my blade strangers win-loss ratio was 14-20 or something)

taps chin I DONT NEED. HELP WITH THESEFEELINGS THEY'LL BLOW OVER. im like sodapop except my problems are never real you get me like. irl sodapop curtis in the big 25 but if. how problems affected him was like how people thought they did or whatever