Empath

I, unfortunately am not one

I have empathy deficit disorder (EDD) in which I cannot feel or empathize with people, I feel low sympathy for people around me and I am discussing Bipolar disorder with my therapist. I’m telling you all this because I want to get vulnerable with my friends because I trust you guys, and I want to let you guys know that you can be vulnerable around me too.

When my grandpa died, I didn’t feel anything. I didn’t know the guy that much, but when I saw my mom crying I didn’t feel.. bad. I didn’t feel like I had any connection with her in that moment.

When my friend lost his discord account (taken away from him by his parents) I didn’t feel empathetic for him, I was just like “Oh. Okay.”

When I was helping a server member that was about to kill themself— I tried my best, I tried using logic against them, but they ended up doing it anyway. I didn’t blame myself, it was their fault, i told myself then. I know to this day I should’ve tried to get vulnerable to help them.

This disorder makes me feel not normal, like I’m subhuman or something because I can’t feel a basic human emotion which I can help people with

Anyway thanks for coming to my ted talk