Struggling to be alive

25/05/25

I struggle with everything. 

I struggle to be normal like everyone else.

I struggle with communicating, I struggle to keep feeling like I'm satisfied with my life, I struggle to please everyone, I struggle with maintaining a relationship with people because they ruin me. I don't think I struggle with anything more than being avoidant and cold to people who care about me. I don't think they cared anymore

I struggle with work. Doing everyday chores are painful. I can't seem to get up and immediately do something that I don't enjoy. Now I'm just an dirty, unhygienic creature who pushes everyone away but still let the most abusive people treat me badly.