Haircuts and my Dad

I recently got a haircut and as usual, I don't like it. But this time feels different since a few days ago I finally came to the conclusion that I'm genderfluid. I wish I didn't have to get this shitty haircut, but then again I wanted a hair cut, but I just didn't know what kind I should get and I still don't know what I wanted. I really want to have long hair, like I really REALLY wish I had long hair. I go out and about seeing all these people with their cool ass hair and me being me, I get super sad and jealous. Before my haircut today my hair was messy and somewhat long as it reached my neck and my only issue with it was that it was getting really messy and bad looking in the back, but now it's too fucking short and it's my dad's fucking fault.
My dad has always had an issue with how I choose to present myself, even before 2024 (when I realized I was a fruitcup). All the haircuts I would get were unwilling and I'd always end up unhappy, but more recently he's been such a fucking prick about my hair. Last month I went to where he worked and asked one of his coworkers about my dad, but apparently when that coworker told my dad about me asking about him, he had described me as a kid with disheveled hair. This made my dad adamant that I NEED to get a haircut because his fuckass coworker described me in a certain way, what a fucking asshole. How is he going to let the opinion of his COWORKER affect me!?? I usually go with my mom to get my haircut and she always has to ask for something that wouldn't piss off my dad because my dad likes to make snide remarks to my mom about whether I "got a haircut" or did they "trim my hair". AND ITS SO FUCKING ANNOYING WHEN HE DOES THAT.
GOD FUCKING DAMMIT.
FUCK HIM.