venttty

im so tired, physically, mentally n emotionally. im just done. but the thing is i have nothing to be "tired" of nothing to be "done" of, i enjoy almost nothing, i dont draw anymore i dont write anymore and nothing, talking to friends doesnt help listening to music doesnt help, at times no absolutely NO distraction help. Ive had my days when i feel really bad and have the worst days and moods ever but now its getting frequent AND worse, deep inside nothing actually makes me happy, im laughing on a joke my friend made and secs later? Im back to being quite. ★(a little mention of sh!!) Recently had such a bad day, i was feeling nothing and when i say nothing i mean NOTHING. it was horrifying. nothing made me happy nothing made me sad just a feeling of i cant much describe, even sh didn't help, music was nothing to my ears, even on full volume. its getting bad and i cant stop thinking about how im getting bad, ruining myself, my future and my parents hope. 

quite stupid how this is my first blog but goddamn i cant take ts no more, im also getting used to this app sorryTT