I'll be right here

Our relationship was never perfect, and it wasn't even close. When we first got together, we had so much in common that I believed you were the opposite version of me, we clicked so fast and for every bad argument we had, it would be forgotten by some kind words or a cute gesture. I thought "honeymoon phase? I doubt that's what this is." I didn't want to believe that what we had was just something predictable that would blow over and fall apart with due time, things changed, and I could accept that. I didn't love you because of you were because it would have meant loving 'that' specific version of you, I loved you no matter the change because love adapts and changes with time, and with time I changed for you. I changed for you because I wanted to be the girl you would introduce to your parents and constantly show off and it was like that, so then why did you change for the worse? Why did you stop trying? I knew with every argument that our relationship was bound to end, it was just a matter of when. Every argument you'd tell me that you would change, and I believed every word or at least I changed to believe it, I wanted to believe that maybe just this once I was worth changing for. 

I know that my friends are tired of me constantly talking about you, but can you blame me? You made nine months pass by so fast, and I was ready for a serious relationship, I was ready for something more. You were everything to me, you were my favorite person. When I ended the relationship, you didn't argue and you didn't fight me about it, you didn't even ask why. Did you accept it so easily because you never cared or because you cared too much, because in your words I could be "happier" without you. That's such a coward answer, that and "You deserve someone better" I don't want someone better, I wanted you. I wanted YOU to be better, not anybody else, just you. 

I won't text you first, I've thought about it countless times, but I won't do it, although I would be lying if I said I wouldn't answer in a heartbeat if you did first. If you ever decide that you want to change, I will be right here waiting for you because I never wanted anybody else.