4/16/2025

My mom and I finally cleaned up the kitchen cabinets. There were a lot of expired seasonings. I like feeling satisfied after cleaning things up. My next goal is organizing the pantry and the desk drawers.

The living room is probably going to be the last room to clean. I'm not sure about the back room, it's in an awkward position like it's clean but it's not at the same time. You know when you have a hair cut and some time later it's at the length where it's making you feel ugly but you need to give it a chance to grow it out? It's like that.

A few days before that, I was feeling very depressed. I decided to stay up for as long as I can because I didn't feel like sleeping. I woke up around 2 pm probably and then stayed up until 3 pm the next day. 

Because I was feeling miserable, I didn't want to sleep 'cause when you're attempting to sleep, you're fully confronted by your thoughts alone. Ignoring those thoughts is work. 

Waking up is an annoyance. I first feel fine, feeling like last night's emotions and thoughts didn't really matter and then it just comes back to me. It's a hassle of being alive.