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i feel so weird. i miss him so much it physically hurts me. im not even kidding. but at the same time, when i think about all the time we were together i feel like there is something wrong, i never felt full when i was with him, but still i miss him. or maybe the memories i had with him. its strange, i dont tend to cry very often but ive been crying for a week straight every night thinking of him. someone help me please. i wish we never met. maybe im just made for love. born to love, incapable of being loved. weird. im weird. my existence is weird. i try to just brush it off but i cant. i wish i wasnt a bitch sometimes. im fucked.