Can't tell If I'm getting better

I can't tell if I've gotten better. I'm delusional I think. I don't really feel sad that much or feel like I need them but I still want them. It's all I think about but I'm not sad anymore when I think about it. I just daydream all day. Lol I play this game called pocket love where I made them. I didn't play it that much before. Only when I cut ties that's when I really started playing. I can't tell if I actually like the game or it's my subconscious enjoying it because it had them in it. I listen to their playlist. Check their activities. Just lurking around. I'm tired of socializing these days replying days later sometimes a lot actually.