2025-may-22

Today was eventful. I spent 5+ hours in front of my monitor, lol. Just tinkered with boring linux stuff. Now I'm feeling a bit... dreadful? & I don't know why. I'm not sure what got me sad. Maybe it was the music I was listening to. Maybe it was the comfort popping CDs in every hour or so gave me, & it reminded me that I'm very uncomfortable here. I don't know. I feel like I'm in a bad dream, except the dream is only bad because of how you feel, not the actual events in the dream. Just that you're in an unfamiliar place, you yourself are misplaced, but everything's mundane. The world keeps spinning despite your anguish. That's what makes it bad.

At least feeling weird made me wanna blog. There's that. It's productive for me to document my life. I like it on here! & the niche little beatles community I've seen so far :)

I painted a shirt the other day. I think it looks really cute. Just gotta seal the paint now, if I can ever find an iron. I don't know if I even have an iron... I need a nap.