about a girl i like!

khloe here! (goofy intro (sorry))

I'm honestly not expecting anyone to read this useless rant but I just want to get it off my chest :) I'm scared to tell this to my friends or anyone so im just coming online to say it. Put your suggestions in the comments! (WOULD HELP ME A LOT!)

So, there's this certain someone 🤫 in my english and science class and I really like her (shes super cute but shes also shy when meeting new people) . I'm way too scared to tell a soul about it because this is honestly my first time liking a girl and I'm trying hard to fight the lezbian allegations (it's because I have red hair (I know, pretty weird that people think i like girls because I have red hair)). The reason I'm fighting the allegations is because i dress really masculine and i dont really want people to make fun of me because i dress masculine and i like a girl. people at my school are big haters against lezbians so its kinda hard to tell anyone. Also, if its just a little phase my friends will always mention it even if i dont like them anymore. So anyways, Shes in my english class and science class but im TERRIFIED to talk to her. It's hard to talk to her because she already has friends and im WAYYYY to scared to talk to people i dont know (social anxiety maybe?). In science, she used to sit on my table with 2 other girls and then me and my friend and I sometimes sit next to her on the table but we dont talk, we just talk to our own friends. i also saw her and this other girl watching LIFE OF LUXURY AND KUBZ SCOUTS MY FAV YOUTUBERS and i was going to say something but im the MOST awkward person on planert earth and its so hard for me to talk to people. In english class, She sits with this one girl at the back of the class and i normally sit at the table infront of her. apparently the girl she hangs with during english is rude but i dont know she seems nice. anyway, I added her snap and i was too scared to start small talk (OFC) so i just asked her if she wanted to start a streak and she said sure. We have a 20 days streak and she always views my snaps i send (most people just dont open them). I normally send a black screen while she sends either something funny or just a wall. The funny pics are just a random filter or something random that its funny. i know shes a lezbian because she dated a girl im kinda on talking terms with so I know as a fact. On insta, I added her and she normally likes my notes when i put korn on and i always do. I like her notes all the time so i hope it kinda hints. i sometimes put MSI on my notes and i think she hates them so im scared she doesnt like me cos i put some of their songs. BTW! I DONT SUPPORT MSI! I REPEAT! I DONT SUPPORT MSI I JUST LIKE THEIR MUSIC! also, ive been rejected 4 times before. one of them was recent so im still recovering. It's hard because everyone has dates and I just have nothing. i tried to push away my feelings for her but It's good to try new things because you never know 🤷‍♀️ This is getting long so ill keep it short but does anyone have anything to help me? any suggestions? also, Ill update you guys!