School Year = Im getting older and im actually okay with that

last day of my school year today, just one more year before the "big girl" stuff. one more year..

i feel so.. complete, for the first time ever. i actually feel so accomplished and i fully believe i migth have a chance. im growing up and it doesnt feel like death anymore. i dont feel a hole in my existence about this. im not plagued with overwhelming sadness about the coming tomorrow. i dont think i can remember my first ever day of school, but i remember the hell i put up with. though, the bad memories are easier to remember and a little harder to let go. some things i dont think i'll ever let go (unrelated to school). but, im content with that i guess. i believe you dont have to absolutely let everything go, just dont let it fester.

besides all of that, i feel so.. feely. im feeling so much. i will cry heavily soon but not a sad cry, just letting things out to make room.