nightmare

just woke up from the worst nightmare ever. i still feel like something is coming for me. i feel so fucking paranoid. i might even have had some sort of sleep paralysis while in the middle of it. i don't know if i actually "woke up" for a moment and had it, or maybe the dream was just so real i actually felt it. i tried calling my mom during that time. i tried to keep my eyes open by constantly rolling them from one side to the other, but my whole body and eyelids felt too heavy. then into the nightmare i entered once again. it has only been a few minutes since i woke up, and i for sure know the nightmare was less than half an hour long. still, i am in the very edge of tearing up, i am flooded by my own sweat and my hearbeat continues to thump strongly.