Tomorrow

I'm excited, tomorrow will be good. I have a job interview, and later I'm going out on a date with my beloved, I didn't see that coming... that for the first time ever I would feel like a normal person. I feel heavy sometimes, like right now, heavy as a planet... And sometimes I feel so happy that I can't stop smiling and my face hurts. Yang is the man I've been dating, he's a real gentleman, he calls me dear, and he makes me laugh... When I look at him, I can't stop smiling, and when I'm with him, suddenly I forget that I don't like my face or my body, and I become normal. I guess I'm just changing, in the last month 3 people liked me, two asked for my number and one of them I'm dating, in 19 years no one ever liked me, I never had friends, I didn't like studying... Now I'm 20, I love what I'm doing, and I don't want to stop. But don't get me wrong, I've always been happy, I'm just lost sometimes, but now I found myself, and it's gonna be hard to let myself go again.