If you were my diary ...

If this was a diary ... I would vent away every last detail that has been happening to me. I would finally let out all the things I have held in, bottled up, and never truly go to heal over... So many years. I would let out all the things racing in my mind right now. But this isn't a diary. And I am too much of a coward.. to vent anything. Plus who am I? No one special. I'm just a girl who hasn't done anything to be heard. Especially with things like that. Its my trauma, my chemical imbalance, my emotions and thoughts. Its my burden, and I don't want to vent and feel even more selfish for that... I honestly want to disappear. Just go away ..