GRADUATION

5/20/25

>I've graduated 8th grade and I don't know how to feel.

>When May first came around I thought to myself "Man, this is my last month in middle school, how do I feel?" And I couldn't give an answer. How do I feel? I mean I hate this school with my guts so I'm gonna be happy to leave, right? Or am I going to be sad that I'm leaving all these people behind? And I couldn't figure it out, so maybe I will soon.

>Now it's the last full week of school. And after this week, our last day will be Wednesday. I'm sitting in art on Thursday, my last Thursday, and I ponder this question again. Again, I didn't know how I would feel. It was frustrating. Why could I never decide my feelings not just for graduation, but for anything? So like before, I wait until my graduation to ask myself this question.

>Today is Tuesday, May 20th. I've officially graduated the 8th grade. Tomorrow will be my last day attending the school. During the entire ceremony, not one strong emotion came into my body. Not even when I won an award. One might've said I was smiling, but that was more of a reflex than a display of my feelings. But it wasn't until I talked to my friend, that I felt something today.

>My friend, one that I treat like my own brother, will be going to a different high school that the rest of our friends. Whenever I thought about this situation, I never really felt anything tied to it. No sadness (although I pretended), no joy, nothing. So when I realized this would be one of my final times talking to him, I cried. I genuinely cried.

>It was a short burst of emotion, not even lasting 30 seconds, but it was emotion. I was sad. Devastated even. And it's gotten me thinking, will my last day be like this too? Is that when I'll finally cry or cheer. Yell or weep? I'll only get the answer, tomorrow.

>Cya B)