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can't believe i'm almost about to graduate highschool without ever having experienced the high school life i dreamt of as a kid based on sitcoms and novels. but that was never reality to begin with.
lately i've been looking into getting a job. mostly pushed by my parents, i've been turning in applications and all that stuff. it's not something that i really want to do, but it's something that i have to do. morally. if there was some other way i was contributing to society, even if i wasn't making money, that'd be fine. morally. but you'd still need money.
lately i've been looking in the mirror. smile lines along with acne i haven't bothered to wash. i never really learned how to do all that skin care stuff. i thought it was frivolous, but maybe it would've done me some good. my eyes are pretty big, if you take off my glasses. wouldn't i love to give in to tv? dull girl takes off her glasses and is suddenly pretty. woooow. no.
i got a hair cut. it's quite short now. i don't know if it makes me look older or younger.
lately, i've been a bit lonely. a bit longer than lately, really. but it's really embarrassing to say something like that. i'm not some loser femcel, right? even though i've never even kissed someone and have unironically played all those dating sim visual novels, right? i mean, it's nobody else's fault. even then, i'm trying a little bit, right? maybe i don't even want a real romantic relationship...
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i don't wanna work! i just wanna cook tasty food and waste my brain away on the internet all day! i just wanna wonder around town in circles without fear! i wanna go see a concert where the cool kids are at, and feel like i'm living. or, i want to find anything i can do that makes me feel like i'm living.
i feel less like a young adult, and more like an old kid. this is my problem. i care too much for my own feelings.
period cramps :(
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Urban_AJ
22 now. I still remember turning 18 it felt like last week
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I still feel like my 16 year old self. I donât think Iâll ever feel like an adult.
Just hold on to those years friend. Time is gonna speed up. You donât need to blend in with the âcool kidsâ just be yourself and do what makes you happy, even itâs considered insignificant by society.
morgan
As a 23 year old i say that ânon-adult, big kidâ feeling doesnât go away⌠maybe it will at some point, but its okay to feel like that. A lot of people do, cuz i see a lot of other people like in general sharing the same sentiment. Just keep trucking on and taking care of yourself. By the way, now that youâre out of hs, friendships will become more effort since youre not around your people all the time. And its okay to not have that generic, social, romantic high school experience. A lot of people dont, no matter how common it is in like shows and movies and other media. Its okay to not have the âperfectly averageâ experiences